If it's magic (make it everlasting) - Sergio Jeans

ENTRY ONE 

Title: If it’s magic (make it everlasting)

i want to ask you so much 

i have so many things to say to you 

i have so many questions for you 

have you ever lost faith in yourself 

does the chosen one have doubts 

does his holiness have a bad hair day 

can a deity ever falter 

can someone with thousands of children keep track of and care for them all 

what is free will 

and do we have it for real ? 

or is the free will of one 

distilled among the rest 

and we swallow it in the morning 

with the rest of our meds 

blue or red 

we’ll never know 

right or wrong 

we’ll never know 

but everyone tells me that You know. 

you the almighty 

you the all powerful 

i do believe in you 

do you believe in me?

i wish you would stop leaving me on read 

actin like you’re better than me. 

you’ve got such a superiority complex 

and everybody’s feeding into it. 

you created a list of words 

and nailed a man to wood

because of their meaning 

a meaning you created 

we are all what you created 

and so we can be more 

it can all be more 

there will always be more 

but what if what we need 

is less ? 

what if we don’t need the meds 

blue or red ? 

what if nothing’s wrong or right 

wasn’t it fine for adam and eve to just exist ? 

can it really be true that a piece of fruit caused all this ? 

and what if Jesus was the first minstrel

asked to put on a show for the white man 

only to be gentrified in history 

and denied the respect of his own word. 

word changed into versions by other white men –  

don’t you too want to read 

the uncensored version of what he said ? 

and what if Jesus was the first piece 

of strange fruit that grew and hung 

from a poplar tree

what if the wood he was nailed to 

was made from one? 

is it so different to die 

by a crown of thorns 

than by a gun ? 

but there are no hashtags for Jesus Christ 

no chants to say his name, 

for we mainly say it in vain.

and what if i felt him in church today 

how do i trust him to take this pain away? 

how do i know when to pray 

or even what to say. 

“hi God” “hey Jesus” “what’s up my guy” 

“how was your day” 

can i ask why mine was bad 

or can i still not know yet 

you confuse me the two of you 

and i call to mother mary too 

becauyse what i believe is that 

someone has to know 

i believe there is a reason 

(most days)

but my faith comes in seasons 

(and waves) 

please help me make it last 

and help me believe it’ll stay.