How do you love? - Lavelle Roach

As I write this my atoms shake

An endless vibration that communicate my brokenness

I’m scared of you

I’m scared of myself

Love has hurt me in ways that I’m still too naive to process

Used for my body

Abused for my mind

Ignored because of my soul

Every recalled experience turns me into an unknowable creature

Unable to be loved without biting back to sever the connection

I fear my heart can never be salvaged

If it can’t will we keep trying

Will my body finally turn into sea foam

Or will I simply disappear like I was never there

An amazing example of a wasted potential 

Please teach me how to love